I had the pleasure of spending the last 2 days in Irvine, CA, for a Leadership Summit for work. It was very exciting to get out of the store for 2 days and meet some new people, talk about our experiences and hear from top execs. However, sometimes when you get to take a step back and learn more about a company as a whole, it makes you second guess whether that company is for you. I am still trying to digest all the information from the trip, yet I left a little weary of my future, not excited for it, which is the opposite of what their intentions probably were.
The positive thing about the summit was that Lynsey and Jenn (my 2 best friends from school) who also have my position (in AZ) came in for the summit as well! We got to spend 2 days catching up, laughing, and reconnecting. It made me realize how important it is to have friends, and how much I miss home (if i didnt already know!)
I would like to also take the time to thank all of my family and friends who have donated to my triathlon. When things get hard, and I am struggling to keep up and second guessing my abilities, I receive a letter, or a donation, and it keeps me going. Even from family members whom I haven't had much communication with over the years, stepped up and were there for support. I will be doing a practice triathlon in 2 weeks and then I have a month and a half to finish up my training! Time is ticking, and its time to push myself even harder to ensure I am ready when May 1st comes around.
So now it is decision time for me. I need to make some major life choices about what direction I want to go in with all the information I received the last 2 days. The one thing I know is that I need to stay positive. I let myself fall into a rut sometimes and feel sorry for myself ("I have no friends, I miss my family, my job is stressing me out and not making me happy...") STOP WHINING! If i just focus on being positive, and making the most out of learning in the the position I am in at this moment, then I can only hope that what is supposed to happen, will happen.
Interesting reading...I like it. Having been in the exact(I mean exact) same situation I would say, follow your heart. Don't stay with the company just to have something. You know what will make you happy and forget what people will say or what they think. You have been feeling this way for a while...do what's right for you. Try to relax about what happens at work, you are a strong hard worker and you know you'll get done what needs to be. So just relax knowing that you'll always be doing what's right and that's who you are, so no need to stress about that.
ReplyDeleteHi Jessica! I started running at age 40. It took me a year to get to a mile (after 23 years of smoking!). I ran for 20 years and won some 2nds and 3rds in 5K races.
ReplyDeleteDid you read the book by Clarence Thomas, his autobiography about how his grandfather pushed and pushed him, he had to weather terrible political prejudice because he is black, but he became and is a United States Supreme Court Justice and I admire him so much. It is, My Grandfather's Son, one of the best books I have ready in years - inspirational when the going gets tough. Sharon