Here comes the battle

Just got done with Sunday night dinner; steaks, baked potatos, grilled corn, sauteed mushrooms ... reminded me of home. Now comes the snuggling on the couch watching Entourage and going to bed at 9:30 cause I am now all grown up and apparently the second you get a real job, you turn into an adult who grills full meals, spends sunday's clening and then going to bed early.

Week one of work in the store is done and I AM EXAUSTED! This is hard, harder then I thought, harder then I wanted but just hard enough to push my boundries, challenge me, and push me to make it work, make it fun, and make a success out of it. 6:30am meetings pointing out that working hard isnt good enough, and that we need to be better, do better, make our numbers, hit quota. All of this when all I know how to do is NOTHING! Training was a joke, it taught me nothing, I can tell you everything you wanted to know about Verizon as a company, about the features that we offer on our phones, but I can't complete any transactions completely without having to ask for help or having it take an hour to show some old guy how to send a text message.

Dear God,
Give me strength, help me to see the reason behind why I am here.

Amen

Furthermore, I come home from work at 9:00 after being on my feet in heels all day, take a shower, go straight to bed, get up and do it again. Now the weekend comes and my head says "LETS GO DO SOMETHING! I WANT TO GET OUT, EXPLORE!!!" but then my body says "HELL NO, my feet hurt, my legs are numb, my back is aching, im camping my ass on the couch and wathing marathons of Real Housewives of Atlanta." my body seems to be winning lately. Hopefully after this next week my body will stop complaining all the time and I will be able to do something fun.

On a lighter note; I don't know how I would get through this without Rick. He makes me suck it up, makes me realize that my bitching doesnt help, and helps me change my attitude. It also helps that he massages my feet and does all my laundry ;).

So Rick and I went on a walk today, and we walked past a house for sale so I grabbed the flyer and then passed out. $789,000 for a 3 bedroom, 2 bath house with a TINY backyard and a TINY kitchen, REDICULOUS! So it looks like my dreams of buying a house out here is not happening, EVER, cause that is crazy. So i better start making the most of me living here cause this apparently is not a long term thing.

I miss my friends and family, but I do enjoy having to spread my wings and figure life out on my own.